Home Sweet Home

We brought our sweet boy home from the hospital a week ago tomorrow. Isn't that amazing? He was discharged 5 days after open heart surgery! I thought I'd be a nervous wreck bringing him home, but 3 days after surgery, he felt like a completely normal baby to me, and we were all ready to go. He has recovered so quickly and with no complication. We have been blessed beyond measure! I still can't believe it. I told myself numerous times during the hospital stay that as soon as we got home, we'd look back and think how quickly the time flew by at the hospital even though at the time it felt like we were there for years, and it's true, it feels like Benson was just born a week ago and our time at Primaries was only a day or two. I'm glad that it feels that way, but I hope and pray that I never forget the lessons I learned while we were going through this trial in our lives. In Benson's short life, he has aloud me to learn more than I have in my whole life about fear, faith and compassion. But most of all, I have learned that I am stronger than I ever thought I could be, not on my own however, I know now just how much I need the Lord in my everyday life. Not just for the big scary trials in life, but for the small things, like being patient with my kids on days when I feel like crawling into bed and giving up, or for help in recognizing where I need to make improvements in myself. He will always make me a stronger, better person if I rely on him. That is what, more than anything else, I hope I never forget from this experience.
Since we've been home, we've mostly spent the week trying to adjust to life with two kids. I wont lie, it's been rough. Not as hard as I thought it was going to be (I had myself pretty psyched out), but it's definitely been different. I knew when we found out about Benson's condition that when we finally brought him home, he was going to require a lot more time and attention than most newborns, and he has. For the first couple of days we were still trying to manage his pain, so they were filled with lots of crying and struggles to keep him awake long enough to eat enough that he wasn't hungry 30 minutes later. We aren't giving him pain medication anymore and he seems to be doing fine that way, but he is still struggling with eating enough and is still really fussy. We aren't sure why, because it's not pain from the surgery at this point. I think that he might be a colic baby :( He seems to be really gassy. I can pick him at up any given time and get a huge burp out of him. Poor little thing deserves to be so comfortable right now...I feel bad for him. Tomorrow I am going to start cutting things out of my diet that could be hurting him and we will see if it helps.
We had a dr's appointment after we'd been home 2 days and everything still looked really good. They are monitoring his weight gain closely, as it is a good indicator that he is healing well and his heart is functioning properly. He had gained some weight, but I'm not sure how much because Primaries measured in Kg and my pediatrician does it in lbs. I could do the conversion, but I don't remember how many Kg's he was when we left (oops). He was 7 lbs 11 oz on Wednesday, and we have another appointment tomorrow to check again. He is also getting circumcised tomorrow :( I hate that he has to get that done. I just don't want to put him through anything else, but my Dr. said it's better to do it now than to wait. Wish us luck with that...I'm sure we are in for another fussy few days, but we can do it. Who needs sleep anyway?
Josh has been so sweet with Benson. He loves to talk to him and does it in the sweetest, high pitched voice. It makes me laugh every time. I'm sure he's trying to mimic the way I talk to him. The first day we were home I had given Josh his snack and walked into the kitchen for a second, when I turn back around Benson had a pretzel hanging out of his mouth. So we had to learn that babies only drink milk. Josh also loves to "pound it" with Benson and does it probably 100 times a day. It's super cute. There has been a few come-aparts on Josh's end however, especially when Beau hasn't been around to help give him attention when I'm taking care of Benson. He has yelled at me to "Put Benson down!" a couple of times and always wants to sit on my lap while I'm nursing. But he is adjusting, and it's good for him to learn these lessons. He hasn't taken it out on Benson though, which I'm grateful for. For the most part, Josh is doing really well, and I'm happy to have him around for comic relief. He's so stink'n funny!
Although there have been some rough adjusting moments during this week, I am just so happy to be home with a healthy baby, and to have my family back together again. Every day gets easier as Benson is getting stronger. Soon enough life with be back to normal. Well...a new normal I guess.
Here are a few pictures from this past week.

Going home! First time holding him cord-free.

Josh talking to Benson in his sweet voice, and sharing his blanket.

So cute.

I was holding Benson the other night while Taleesa and I watched a movie and looked down to see him doing this with his hands! How did he do that? That takes skill! We all laughed about it for a while.

Josh, Evan and Benson

Pound it! Josh is making Benson's hand into a fist.

Sweet baby Benson. I love those lips.

Sunday March 20

Today has been such a good day! Bens has done awesome all day with tolerating his pain only on Tylenol, and he's eating much better than yesterday! He still has trouble staying away very long, but has managed to nurse for 30 minutes 3 times.
They are telling us that we can go home tomorrow! The only thing that could keep us here is if Benson doesn't gain any weight before tomorrow at 6 am. It's a common problem for babies with heart problems to have trouble gaining weight because their heart works a little harder than normal, and that causes them to burn more calories. If he doesn't gain weight today we will have to start giving him fortified breast milk through a bottle. Breast milk is 22 calories, and fortified milk is 24. I hope he can gain weight without the fortification, but honestly I'm a little doubtful. It just doesn't seem like he is eating enough yet. It's been a long time since I've had a new born, but I'm pretty sure that Joshua ate for longer than 30 minutes at a time. I guess we will see.
Benson's last iv was taken out today. He now has nothing poking in him! I'm way excited about that, but I'm sure he's even more excited than I am. Poor kid has been quite the pin cushion over the last 2 weeks. It's sad to see all of the little red holes and bruises all over his body. I gave him a bath a few minutes ago and tried to scrub some of the dried blood and sticky stuff off of him. He's been covered from head to toe in tape and goo since surgery. He looks SO good now with nothing but his leads on to monitor his heart rate and O2 levels. I can't believe how quickly he has recovered. I thought it was going to take closer to 2 weeks, not 4 days! He is such a little fighter. Seriously, babies are amazingly strong.
In order to go home, Benson has to pass a few tests. One of the tests is called the car seat test. He has to be able to sit in his car seat as long as his ride home will be and maintain is O2 levels the whole time. We just tried it a couple hours ago and he passed with flying colors! He didn't desat once. He's passed all of his other tests as well, now all that's left is the weight gain and we'll be going home! We're keeping our fingers crossed.

He loves to hold his binki.

Just relaxing.

Benson in the carseat. He had to sit in the carseat for 1-1/2 hrs. to make sure he could make it back to Idaho comfortably.

Benson's bandage over the surgery incision.

Saturday March 19

Saturday Benson was moved from the CICU (cardiac intensive care unit) up to the 3rd floor surgical unit. So we are officially out of all the ICU's! We started in the NICU, then we were moved to the CICU which is part of the PICU. The surgical unit is considered a step-down unit, which means it's where a patient goes in preparation to going home. It's a lot different here. We have our own room with a bed, bathroom and TV in it, and there is only one nurse to every 4 patients, whereas in the ICU's there was one nurse on Benson at all times. Being here in the surgical unit has helped me feel like I really can take him home and be ok without dr's and nurses around all the time. I take care of him myself about 90% of the day, and the nurses only come in to check vitals or ask questions. I thought I'd be a nervous wreck taking him home, but he's doing so well and looks so good that it doesn't even feel like he had heart surgery a couple of days ago.
Saturday morning we came in and found Benson almost completely free of all needles and wires! It was so awesome and made him feel that much more like a normal child. We worked on getting him to nurse all day and had a couple successful attempts. The first part of the day he would only eat for a couple minutes and then he'd fall asleep. I could tell it was the Loritab that was keeping him too out of it to eat so I asked if we could switch to Tylenol. Once we switched and the Loritab had worn off enough, he ate really well, but that afternoon he was in a lot of pain and we had to give him more Loritab. Eating didn't go well after that. He'd only eat 10 minutes and then completely pass out. I know he'll catch on though, because he did so well when he was more coherent.
Other than that he is doing perfect! He hasn't had one complication or set back since surgery. He's off of his TPN, blood thinner, antibiotics, and oxygen. He only had to be on the oxygen for a little over 24 hours which is great! They told us at the beginning that he may have to go home on oxygen, so he's obviously doing better than even the average baby with his condition. We are SO grateful! Every day he gets stronger and stronger, and cuter and cuter. Now that he is healthy he is starting to show his little personality and we love it!

A Good Day

Things are finally looking up! Benson is doing so good today! Yesterday was rough. The nurses tried and tried to get him off the ventilator all day and he would not breath on his own. It was really scary to watch and after a whole day of trying with no success, it really started to worry me.

Then about 2 o'clock yesterday afternoon he started having what looked like were seizures. I was sitting by his bed and all of the sudden his eyes started shaking back and forth really fast and his whole body went stiff. It freaked me out and I yelled for the nurse. She came over and was trying to figure out what was going on but couldn't and during that time he started to do it a lot. They ended up calling neurology to come give him an EEG to see if they were seizures. The EEG took an hr and the whole time we had to just sit and watch him have these "episodes" and push a button on the machine every time they happened, but we couldn't touch him or do anything else. It was a long hour! He finally relaxed a little in the late afternoon but the jerking and eye shaking didn't stop completely. It took a little while but neurology got back to us after reading the EEG and confirmed that whatever was going on were not seizures. That was a relief but we still didn't know what was going on. We left the hospital for a little bit to go be with Josh and our parents at the hotel and then I went back a little later to be with Benson. When I got there he finally look a little bit peaceful and the NNP told me they think the reason he was shaking was because they had discovered his calcium levels were drastically low and they had just started giving him some through the iv. While I was there a asked them to start tube feeding him and they said that would be fine. So he FINALLY got some food in his poor empty tummy. I left feeling a little better about the situation but both Beau and I agreed that yesterday was the worst day of our lives. There is nothing worse than watching your baby suffer. We held ourselves together for the most part but I did have a couple break downs.

Now for some good news! When I got in this morning they were in the middle of doing a trial on him to see how he'd do off the vent and he did awesome so they scheduled to have it taken out. It was about an hour later when the respiratory therapist came and they took Bens off the ventilator. Beau and I were pretty nervous and we sat right next to him telling him to breath for probably 30 minutes. I'm sure the nurses thought we were crazy. He did awesome though and still is! I can't even explain how nice it is to see him without the tube down his throat! I've never been so excited to hear a cry. They watched him for a couple hours and then we were able to hold him :)

We just fed him a bottle for the first time! He LOVED it! He ate 2 1/2 oz and now he is passed out! I don't think he's been so happy and comfortable in his whole 11 days of life. I had just pumped when I came in the room and they said I could nurse so I thought we'd just wait and hour or so for my milk to build back up before we fed him, but he wasn't about to wait 2 minutes. So we gave him some of my milk in a bottle and we'll try nursing when he's hungry next. They say that heart patients can have a harder time nursing because it's uncomfortable for them to be on their side and because it's harder work than a bottle when their energy is already so low. I hope he does well. I want a good nurser SO bad!

We just said goodbye to Josh and sent him home with Grandma and Grandpa Davis. I'm glad he'll get to spend some time with them and his cousins in Hurricane. I love having Josh here with us at night and in the morning for a few hours, but it adds a lot of stress to have him here during the day. He gets so sick of being confined in the hospital. I start to feel really bad for him. So as good as it is to see him, I'm happy for him that he gets to go play and have fun with family in the warm weather.

We are feeling so hopeful that we will all be home together soon!

Some Pictures

There are not a lot of cute pictures to post of our little man after the surgery but we thought we would post a couple of the pics from the past couple of days.

Benson before surgery (We love his chubby cheeks)

Benson's Station

Benson getting an EEG (Post-op) With all of the poking and prodding it is good that he is out of it most of the time.

Update

Bens did really well lastnight and things are still looking good this morning. At about 9 am this morning they tried to take him off the ventilator, but he wouldn't breath on his own at all, so it is back on and they are taking him off sedation before they try again. It's hard to see him laying there with tubes coming out all over and knowing that he might be in some pain and can't even show it. But I'd rather have it that way than to watch him cry. He's such a strong kid! I have been amazed to witness how much strength an infant can have.

Lastnight he had an iv in his right arm to monitor his blood pressure and one in his neck in case he needed a blood transfusion during surgery (which they didn't have to do), but this morning the iv in his neck is out. He still has the picc line in his left arm to administer medication directly on the heart, and another iv in his left foot. He had a catheter in lastnight but its out this morning and a chest tube in to drain any excess fluid in the chest cavity. They will have to keep the chest tube in for a while.

Update:

Since I started this post a couple things have changed. They turned off Benson's sedation medication completely and he has been awake for a couple hours. When he's awake he breaths on his own, but when he falls asleep he stops and they have to turn the ventilator back on. I don't like that he's awake. He's very uncomfortable with the tube down his throat and scared. He just looks at me with huge eyes like, please help me. And I can't. It breaks my heart! I wish they could sedate him until the tube comes out.

We left the hospital for a little while this afternoon and went down to temple square. Josh needed to get out so it was good for him. We're on the train back up to the hospital right now and I'm dying to get back to Benson. It was so hard to leave him awake. I hope he did well off the ventilator and that we are close to it coming out. They said I can nurse him about 6 hrs after he's off of it. I can't wait! That will be the highlight of this whole ordeal so far!

We don't know about recovery time yet. It's very different from patient to patient, but we are thinking probably a week to 2 weeks.

Benson Is Out Of Surgery

Benson is out of surgery and everything went well! The surgeon just came to talk to us, he said that the surgery went well and we should be able to see him shortly. We are so grateful for modern medicine and life saving procedures that are possible. We have felt so much love and support over the past week and it has magnified our blessings, not only are they greater but we notice them more.

We pray for a quick recovery and can't wait to take our little man home.

We'll keep you posted.

Surgery

We just kissed our baby boy goodbye and turned him over to the surgeons.

It will probably be 45 minutes from now before the actual surgery begins. Right now the anesthesiologist is putting him under and doing a few other this in preparation.

I have always been nervous about the surgery but after meeting with the surgeon (Dr Burch) and having him take us through, step by step, what he is going to do, I am REALLY nervous! It's not near as simple a surgery as we thought. It's actually extremely complex and carries quite a few risks. They will basically be reshaping the entire side of his heart, not just a snip snip, sew him back together type of thing like we has been told.

It was hard to say goodbye and I am scared to death, but I am also very calm. Calmer than I thought I'd be, and it's because I know he'll be alright.

It will probably be 3 1/2 hrs before we see him again.

Please go by quickly!

Tomorrow!

Surgery is tomorrow at 3 pm! Please keep baby Benson and his Dr's in your prayers.

Thank you for all the prayers that have been said in our behalf this far. They have been felt and answered. Benson is a strong little boy and I have faith that he will do well with this surgery.

I plan to update the blog as things take place tomorrow but I can't make any promises. I'm not sure how I will be feeling, but I'll try.

Thanks again, we love you!

Seeking Comfort Tonight

Learning to endure times of disappointment, suffering, and sorrow is part of our on-the-job training. These experiences, while often difficult to bear at the time, are precisely the kinds of experiences that stretch our understanding, build our character, and increase our compassion for others.

Because Jesus Christ suffered greatly, He understands our suffering. He understands our grief. We experience hard things so that we too may have increased compassion and understanding for others.

Remember the sublime words of the Savior to the Prophet Joseph Smith when he suffered with his companions in the smothering darkness of Liberty Jail:

“My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;

“And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes.” ¹

With that eternal perspective, Joseph took comfort from these words, and so can we. Sometimes the very moments that seem to overcome us with suffering are those that will ultimately suffer us to overcome. ("COME WHAT MAY, AND LOVE IT", Elder Joseph B Worthlin)

Day 7

The dr's came in this morning and told us surgery would be tomorrow. They ordered all of the pre-op labs, a chest X-ray, and another more thorough Eco. They don't want any surprises when they get in there and want to make sure nothing has changed. I was getting really excited and nervous (seriously, my stomach as been doing flips all morning) about him going under, then about 10 minutes ago they called and said that the surgery has been bumped to Wednesday. Now all I want to do is cry. It's been over a week of waiting! Please just fix my son's heart! I'm tired of watching him lay here sick and want him to be getting better not weaker. Our nurse said she's never seen anyone get bumped so long. Lucky us!

It's hard to be positive today...

Days 5 and 6

There hasn't been much change in the last 48 hrs. Benson is still doing really well and holding stable, but is getting a little bit weaker. He sleeps probably 22 hrs a day and doesn't have the strength to stay awake very long when he does wake up. It's partly due to the fact that he hasn't eaten since last Monday and because the medication he is on to keep is artery open makes him feel so yucky, he just feels better when he's asleep. They tell us surgery could be Tuesday, but not to hold our breath. We really hope it is though. This waiting game gets harder and harder everyday. We keep telling ourselves not to get our hopes up, but I don't know if that's possible. We've already been waiting a week and are ready to be on the other side of this. However, we are grateful he is so strong and know that he will bounce back after surgery quickly because of it. He's amazing!

Our daily routine (sort of):

We can't sleep in, so we are usually up and going around 7:30. We get ready as fast as we can and head to hospital. We'll either grab a bowl of cereal at the house or eat in the cafeteria at the hospital. Breakfast is the only meal we have decided is worth eating there. It's pretty good, but let me tell ya, eating out 3 meals a day is getting OLD!

Other than leaving for meals, we spend the entire day holding Benson or walking the halls making phone calls since we can't talk on the phone in the NICU.

Because Benson isn't able to eat, I am pumping. They have a pump room just across the hall from the NICU, so every 3 hrs I head over there for a bit. It's been kind of interesting to watch as my milk production has increased and to see what sort of things affect it. I'm up to about 6 oz every 3 hrs but the first 2 pumpings in the morning can be a little less than that. I feel like I spend half my day in the pump room most days. I don't mind though, it's one of the only things I can do to help Benson out so I'd do it all day if I had to.

From. 6:30-7:30 we have to leave the bedside because of shift changes, so we usually use that time to get out of the hospital. We'll go to the grocery store or run whatever errand we have that day and then grab dinner before we head back. Most nights we leave Benson around 10 or 11 and go back to the room to get some rest. It's always hard for me to leave him.

We talked to Joshua tonight on skype and it was So nice to see him! He's doing so well being away from us (way better than I am). I'm glad he's getting this experience and know that it is so good for him. I miss him more than I can say and I cannot wait to see him sometime this week!

Pictures:

He loves to sleep with his hands next to his face. Even though he hasn't been eating (except through the IV) He still hasn't lost those cheeks or double chin.

Benson Stretching (One of our favorite faces)

The NICU Family Picture

Quick Update: Day 4

It has been a long day and we are ready for bed but we wanted to post a quick update on Benson's status.

Benson is doing well and is still in stable condition, the medical staff here are awesome and keep us informed and Benson as comfortable as possible. Benson has a tentative schedule of a surgery slot on Tuesday but they say nothing is for sure until they are wheeling him to the OR. We are patiently waiting and know our turn will come soon but it is not much fun living in a hospital.

A couple of things have happened since the post. Benson got a PIC line put in in preparation for the surgery and to delivery his medication closer to the heart. His new favorite thing is sponge suckers w/ water. The nurse today told us it was ok to let him suck on these and the poor kid has had the worst dry mouth not being able to eat, he loves them. He sleeps 22 of the 24 hrs in the day and loves to cuddle with us (especially his mom). The doctors say he is extra sleepy because of his heart condition and the medication. His little heart is working so hard.

Some of our feelings, good and bad:

Despite the trial and tough time, we have never felt so blessed, loved or supported, we have the best friends and family, and many of our friends we consider family. We thank you for all of the prayers, thought and concern for our son. It brings us to tears numerous times a day.

Although Benson has a serious heart condition all we have to do is talk to other parents or walk down the hall and we consider ourselves lucky that Bensons condition is treatable, we can hold and touch him and we will be out soon. Some babies have been there for 6 months with another 2 months ahead of them or have problems they will struggle with the rest of their lives. We are blessed.

The day after we got to Primary Children's our perspective of our situation was changed. We watched as a family gathered together to say their good byes to their little son that was not going to make it. We know we are going to be able to take our son home and he will live a full life. We cry thinking of this family and have a portion of empathy for them. Life is precious and eternal family ties mean more to us than they ever did before.

Waiting for surgery is hard.

It's heartbreaking to see how many critical NICU babies are born to young teenage kids or parents that don't care.

Being away from Joshua is REALLY hard. He has been the center of our lives for the past years, his moms little sidekick and his dad's best buddy. We both feel like a piece of us is missing without him. We are grateful he is having fun with his cousins and know he is in good hands with his aunt Tara.

To end on a good note, we have fallen in love with this little man and are so happy he is a part of our family.

Pictures:

Tummy Time (Benson liked it)

Benson and Mom

Benson's Favorite New Treat, Sponge Suckers

Benson Lee Davis

There is only one post on this blog from me since Tianna started it and that was when Joshua was born. I guess it is fitting that my second post is at the birth of our second son Benson.

The past 4 days have been a rollercoaster and I am not exactly sure where to start so I will start from the beginning. On Monday morning we went in to the hospital to get started at 7am. By 8am they had the drip of pitosin in and Tianna was well on her way to having a baby. By 10:30 we were getting close and the doctor was called and at 11:14 Benson came into the world. Doctor Leavitt was super cool and let me dress up and deliver the baby. I have to be honest was really nervous during the moment but it was a really cool experience. Benson was healthy and passed all of the regular tests that they do to the newborns............. except one. They heard a heart murmur but were not alarmed because all newborns have heart mumurs; however, Benson’s was a little louder than most. On Tuesday morning at 10:30 the doctors decided to do an echogram on his heart, it just happened that that same day the regional director of infant cardiology from Primary Childrens hospital was visiting the Idaho Falls hospital (this happens one day every month) and read the echogram, she immediately ordered a lifeflight to Primary Childrens and the madness of the past 3 days began.

The diagnosis was a coarctation of the aortic arch and a bicuspid valve. They immediately started him on a medication to keep a temporary artery open that all infants are born with that was helping with his blood circulation. They needed to get him to Primary Childrens to get the help he needed. Benson and I headed to the airport and Pat (Tianna's mom) Tianna and Joshua headed home to quickly pack some bags and head to Salt Lake. We went from planning to take our new son home in a couple of hours to wondering if he was going to live, the highest of highs to the lowest of lows.

The flight was quick and we were at primary childrens before we knew it. The medical staff went right to work getting a better diagnosis and prognosis. They confirmed what the staff in Idaho had found. He has a bicuspid valve, which the tests show is not an issue and he will be fine with the valve the way that it is. The other thing that they did confirm is the coarctation of the aortic arch, which in simple words is a narrowing of the artery that constricts blood flow to the lower half of his body. They have him on medication to keep him stable but the medication makes him feel like he has flu and it is hard to see him in pain. They keep him drugged up most of the time so he is usually pretty comfortable which is good. In order to fix the problem they are going to have to go in and cut out the narrow part and sew the 2 ends back together. The good news is that the success rate of the surgery is 95%+ but there is a 25% chance that the scar tissue from the healing will cause problems in the future. He will be able to have a completely normal life, play sports, run and have no physical restrictions but he will have to have regular echo grams to track the spot of the repair and make sure that the scar tissue is not becoming a problem.

The Surgery

Since Benson is stable on the medication the doctors have him scheduled for open-heart surgery next week. There was a cancelation for tomorrow and they were going to take Benson in but an emergency case came in and took the spot so we are still planning on next week some time. We will know about 24 hrs in advance of the surgery. The surgery will take 2-3 hrs and will leave him with a small scar beneath his armpit and a heart that will function the rest of his life. Our emotions are on the surface to say the least and we are really concerned and nervous to have our son have heart surgery but the staff here is amazing and helped us understand his condition, the procedure and the possible outcomes, which has helped us to deal with the situation better. Knowledge is power in this case and we know so much more than we did 48 hrs ago.

Things We have Learned

Last night Tianna and I had a chance to sit and talk before we went to bed and reflect on the blur of the past 3 days. We both feel like we have learned more about love, empathy, family, priesthood power and the love of God than we have ever learned in our lives. In no circumstance would we ever wish this situation on anyone but we are so grateful for the blessings that have come from it. Never in our lives have we felt such love and support from family and friends. We have always counted our family and friends as some of the most cherished blessings in our lives but these past couple of days have taught us how truly blessed we are. It has also taught us a love that we didn’t understand before. Thank you for the prayers, thought and support for our son. We have faith and hope that he will recover and everything will be ok. He is doing great right now and stable. We are preparing ourselves for the surgery next week and enjoying the time we get to spend with him.

This family blog will be where we (Tianna) will update and show pictures of Benson’s progress and status. If anyone has questions about his condition or progress you can leave a comment and Tianna will answer it in the next blogpost.

Pictures From The Past 4 Days

Getting Ready to Catch Benson

Benson w/ Tianna Right After Birth

Benson in IF Hospital (before problems)

Grandma Anderson, Joshua, Benson and Tianna in IF hospital

Just the Boys

Benson's First Day in the NICU at Primary Children's

Day 2 First Time Holding Benson in the NICU

Day 3 Catching Some z's

Day 3 w/ Dad